Disappointed by your disappointment.

When I explain my dream job, normally people either respond saying “Weird, I’d never want to do that, but it’s your choice and I support you” or  “Wow! That’s great! That is perfect for you.”  Not always though. One of my brothers has made it well known for years that he considers any job where he is not self-employed to be a waste of time and has openly ridiculed me for my career and education choices. I accepted years ago that this will never change, and I chose to ignore opinion on the subject.

Some opinions are harder to ignore.

Recently at a family get together, my career goals came up in a couple of conversations. I have tried my entire life to make my family proud, but this time all I saw was disappointment in the faces of he people I was sharing with. I can’t find the words to explain the feeling that followed.

The only opinions that really should matter to me are my own and my husband’s. But that is easier said than done.

It is okay if you don’t understand my dream. I don’t mind if you are indifferent to it. But please don’t mock what I have chosen to do with my life.

I will move on. I am still pursuing the dream. I will not give up.

Thank you for being supportive, and thank you for being patient. I get frustrated at times juggling a full-time job (and then some, sometimes), school, trying to maintain a social life (and generally failing miserably), and trying to ensure that I spend time with family on a regular basis. I know it must be frustrating for you too. You are all an important part of my life, and that is not going to change.

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